Ala Moana Hotel - Mama Told Me

I thought to myself with wonder, so this is what they mean by heartache. And I was not sure how I was going to endure the hurt, suddenly and without warning, my heart was broken. Had been innocently anticipating a joyful reunion, that just a moment before, throbbing ache replaced the gentle thump thump thump of a heart, a terrible, deep within my breast. I fought for each breath; dizzy with despair, the pain was unbearable.

And now I was paying for it, i had blithely closed my eyes to the inevitable. Which foretold the impending betrayal, flashing lights, the red, the sign posts, had ignored the signals, in love, but I, the warnings were there all along. I should have seen it coming!

" You will see that they will do the very thing they accuse you of, and eventually, they are judging you by their own standards. And would never think of doing, would never dream of doing, "Beware of anyone who accuses you of doing something you would never do. . . She counseled. Mom offered some advice, during one of our infrequent late-night talks. What had my mother said to me?

Mom's absolutely right, realizing the truth of my mother's words, i thought, yes! And believed that everyone was dishonest, who would tell a lie even if the truth were better, bob. And thus always accused others of stealing, a person I avoided because of her tendency to take whatever she liked, karen. And honest, and kind, who expected everyone to be gentle, sweet Joy. There was Joy. Various acquaintances came to mind, as she spoke.

And dismiss the conversation as a sure sign that he was as in love as I, sensuous kiss, give him a warm, " I would smile. "when I have the man all women desire, " I cajoled, "Why would I see other men? I assured him that I was as true and loyal as any man could want, lovingly, trustingly. And thought Terry was being romantic when he started accusing me of seeing other men, i somehow forgot my mother's wise words of warning, my heart filled with romantic fantasies, wildly in love, however, years later.

As it was to me, i believed he was afraid of losing a love as important to him. I took them at face value, when Terry began his accusations, so. The thought of changing what was comfortable to my personal moral code had never entered my mind. Being honest and open suited me. But that was me, i guess you can say I wore my heart on my sleeve. I did not play them, disliking games. Had never appealed to me, playing one man against the other, evoking jealousy, intrigue. I had always been a one-man woman.

It was with happy anticipation that I knocked on his door, so. And to inquire as to how his mother was doing, anxious to see him, i was proud of Terry. And make sure she ate a good dinner, get her any groceries she may need, and he wanted to spend the evening with her, he explained, his mother was ill. Terry had broken our usual Friday night date, the night before. I also decided to do something I had previously never done: stop by Terry's house unannounced. I rose early because I had extra errands to run that day. I remember - it was a Saturday.

" . . Terry's girlfriend. . . I'm. . . . "I'm, finally mumbling, unable to speak at first, in shock, i stood there. " she demanded. "Who are YOU? With long dark hair, i remember that she was beautiful. I never got her name.

" and slammed the door, honey, join the club. "He does this all of the time, she smirked, and looking me straight in the eye, " Swiveling back. Here's another one! "Terry, she called, and looking over her shoulder, turning her head! A look of disdain crossed her lovely features.

Why? I wailed to myself. Mom, why didn't I listen? And falling upon my bed, i only remember climbing the stairs to my room. I don't know how I made it home. Long time, and remained there for a long, by my overflowing heart, only seconds before, a searing pain filled the space occupied, at that moment.

" . . "Beware of anyone who accuses you of doing something you would never do, and I have told my son. I observe them closely, betrayal, i weigh their words; lying, i guard my possessions; stealing, i embrace them; if a friend charges others with being too kind. And those who will not, and use them as a compass in choosing those who will be a part of my life, i remember my mother's words. I watch and pay attention to what people expect of others, to this day. I learned my lesson.